It was a very experimental dinner because all three recipes were previously untried. The verdict: the roasted vegetables were very nummy, kinda caramelized and a little sweet, though the parsnips were easily my least favorite of the group. Will probably leave those out next time and just double the sweet potatoes.
I made my garlicky greens with kale, which is a very strong tasting green but it worked with the garlic and the red pepper seeds. That turned out well also.
The tofu was the only part of the meal that didn’t score well for me. The marinade didn’t flavor it as much as I had hoped – and I would have preferred it chewier. If you make it, I’d recommend the broiling finishing touch if texture is a big thing for you. You might also cut it up into cubes so that it has more of a crust. (This is what I’m going to try to salvage the rest of the tofu I cooked.)
So I’d probably make the meal again but I’d find another “meat” alternative to take the place of the tofu. That was a lot of work (with the pressing) for something I wasn’t sold on. I didn’t even eat that second slice I dished up on the plate.
I think I need to rethink my “not buy any meat alternatives” guideline. Tonight I could have benefited from a meat replacement, as I had my first real pang for meat and cheese.
I blame Rosa’s Cafe. They have a Mexican salad I’ve always loved (which is so super bad for you I can’t even begin to count the ways) and right now they’re having a sale. I saw it and a had a pretty strong urge for it.
I think it was more that I was feeling so poorly I didn’t want to have to make the meal (it was a lot of work), I would have rather had something take-out, but there’s not too many vegetarian options around these parts. There’s a place called Jason’s Deli, but even their vegetarian options have cheese.
So I opted out of that while the guys got McDonalds, and while I was waiting the couple of hours to prepare everything all I wanted was an easy solution.
Boom, here comes the devil incarnate – fast food commercials. I saw that salad and boom, strong strong urge and the thought, “aw man… wish I could have that.”
Steven tells me it really wasn’t a moment of weakness as I didn’t act on it, but it felt like one because the temptation took real strength to fight.
I haven’t had that problem up to now.
I think it has to do with two basic issues. One, the way the weight is falling off is probably wigging me out a lil bit… tapping into those issues of vulnerability that have always plagued me. Two, I think I’m still processing some elements of that dream I had that brought up some old feelings that thrust me right out of my comfort level.
Combined with the lingering frustration with the pain and how it limits my every day mobility and you have a recipe for returning to old, familiar behavior that intellectually I know is bad for me but is easier than the new lifestyle I’ve chosen.
I just have to remind myself that it’s easier for the time being, but ultimately it’s going to work out like a funnel… easy habits all end up bottle-necking and creating a big mess to fix later on.
Like my weight now, and the back problems it exacerbates.
Rewiring the brain is harder than changing some eating patterns, but it’s not impossible. These are all steps in the right direction.
And I’m going to celebrate these victories with the attention they deserve.
The Chatterbox gets knocked flat again by a well-deserved Atta Girl.